I wonder
9:32 PM - July 22nd, 2006
I wonder if I locked the door when I left. I know I did and I know I always do, but I still wonder. Maybe a mysterious mechanical defect caused it to unlatch as I stepped away. Maybe I hallucinated the whole locking-the-door action. Maybe the Underpants Gnomes infiltrated the lock (1. Unlock door; 2. …; 3. Profit!).
I always wonder if I lock things. Even though I know I did; even though I should know that I did; even though I spend an incredibly amount of time convincing myself that it is locked before walking away.
The uncertainty of such certain events wracks my brain. And this at a time when I’ve been reducing everything that happens around me to logical explanations—turning seemingly random occurrences into certainties. It makes no sense for me to wonder; it makes no sense for me to waste CPU cycles wondering. Yet, I do and I do.
Someone remind me to make copies of my Brood War CD for Monday.