I wonder
9:32 PM - July 22nd, 2006
I wonder if I locked the door when I left. I know I did and I know I always do, but I still wonder. Maybe a mysterious mechanical defect caused it to unlatch as I stepped away. Maybe I hallucinated the whole locking-the-door action. Maybe the Underpants Gnomes infiltrated the lock (1. Unlock door; 2. …; 3. Profit!).
I always wonder if I lock things. Even though I know I did; even though I should know that I did; even though I spend an incredibly amount of time convincing myself that it is locked before walking away.
The uncertainty of such certain events wracks my brain. And this at a time when I’ve been reducing everything that happens around me to logical explanations—turning seemingly random occurrences into certainties. It makes no sense for me to wonder; it makes no sense for me to waste CPU cycles wondering. Yet, I do and I do.
Someone remind me to make copies of my Brood War CD for Monday.
July 24th, 2006 at 8:15 am
::chuckle::
Quad, there is a term for that condition: OCD. I suffer from it myself, when it comes to locking doors… but only for a very specific door: the ATDP office. I almost always go back and check, after I’ve walked down the hallway a ways. -_-
I don’t worry about any other doors, oddly enough. Maybe because where I live in upcountry Maui we never worry about locking doors at all.
July 24th, 2006 at 8:15 am
(ugh. Quad, please edit above link. thanks!)
July 25th, 2006 at 11:08 am
I often do this for locking car doors. It’s not even a few minutes later, or during the day, either — I wonder this a second after I’ve locked the door. I’m guessing locking the door via the remote control screws up my brain because I don’t feel like I’m physically locking anything.
July 27th, 2006 at 4:36 pm
I discovered on Kass’ blog that it’s your birthday!
So yay with confetti all over! …How old are you? :)
July 27th, 2006 at 11:46 pm
23. Jordan year =)